Not satisfied

These days I feel empty.I have no idea what I should do. I have to focus on my career because I have only about 7months to my job hunting term. But this summer I will go to study abroad in cebu island! So there is no time for that. Since my first alone adventure,
Of course I'm excited but little bit nervous.
What am I doing? So let me write what I want to do. 1. get foreign friends2. get a foreign boyfriend3. go out this country 4.act in a play 5. join a dance club
I have just five things for now. Am I a love addictive person? Or it could be l wanna be loved by someone. But I decided to stop relationship anymore. Because I knew I can not build a loving relationship. Maybe I might feel lonely. So I wanna join a something club.
I wanna see what I never seen before! Though I have no clue. First of all I should focus on study English. Yeah, definitely that is right way.😔😔😔😔